Sunday, April 26, 2015

Sipping Coffee by an April Window, 5:30 AM, the First Thyme Sprouts Clearing the Soil in the Starter Tray on the Ledge



Sipping Coffee by an April Window, 5:30 AM, the First Thyme Sprouts Clearing the Soil in the Starter Tray on the Ledge

Being a basket case so long so young, and then
     recurrently ever since—nothing
to wish on anyone...still, the anguish of
     prolonged early dark can (at best)
deform the programmed heart toward lit spaces,

i.e. toward unstriven joy and thankful observance.
Barred from youth’s healthy oblivion       
     and outthrust, one inspects (unless
left eyeless) the givings inside a smaller circle.  
Learns, prematurely, the splendour of sipping  

     a cup of joe right-mindedly:      
knowing what you feel, feeling where you are.
Breathing for some minutes without panic.
     Without desire for else.
Where not mere slag or shard, mind forges strong

caution by having to ask, second by second:
     Is this true? Is this so?
It kills, of course, this grateful vigilance, normal
drives and pathways to success (or their
     originary lack helped steer

the first sirens?) and—a deeper loss— 
the means of sharing others’ dreams other
     than with courteous sympathy, as   
shimmering mirages you’ve seen too, and yes,
     felt their swoony blue pull.               

Miniature green violins emerge from glistening black, 
     tiny tuning knobs first. First lights
come on in the Latimer, early shifts. These are
the great, permanent gains. And against what
     losses really? Buzzings in and out

     of the dry gray cone of conformity—                
ceaseless crawlings of alien thoughts, alien desires.   
Milky light makes it through thick cloud, hovers
     silkily above the yet-unburied, urging
them gently up. This late spring patient, undeterred.  



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