The Men
Giant limbs
glimpsed through steam, dangling
slab-muscled
bodies so unlike your own, white
as the birch
logs they, laughing, send you outside,
naked and
important in the chill dusk, to poke
through a hole
in the hut’s burning belly, beneath
orange-gilled
rocks. Pink-slatted too, those
great flanks,
welted as if branded or flailed, pink
as woodland
flowers you may have glimpsed, pink
as parts of
women you haven’t dreamed of yet.
Lake Nipissing,
when you run with them whooping
into it, feels—just cool. Start of May. The ice ten
days out. Sauna
is that strong a sorcerer. Keeping the
black lake back,
then letting it creep in, and in, until,
a long
half-minute, ice-jar shock makes you splash
and holler and
run howling up the snow-striped muddy
slope to dipper
and steam, radiant rock cradle.
Dreams so single
then: to play as a utility forward
on the Montreal
Canadiens’ fourth line. To kiss
Kathy Lawrence.
The trick with dreams, you sense
without
thinking, is to shorten their distance from
reality, trim
the fuse-chopped gap to crossable. But
life more
mountain-strange than dreams, more
chock and
various its constant drops and vistas.
Those men, one
my father, both gone now. And
yet as they live
in the sweating mist, young enough
to be my sons,
though I have had no children.
Dreams, shy
deer, pick unseen places in the woods
to curl upon
themselves and join soft dark. After
ransack years,
skirting death upon a narrow
wobbly beam, you
become an ink man, poised to
spot the drop
where steam and ice-water kiss.
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